smilling flowers

If you cant smile, cheat life

if you cant feel, smile for me

take the terrain to the left juggle

pick smiling flowers,

when shadows dont see

bring smiles to darkness platters

serve in hopeful juices

from pawpaw trees I love

just smile for me

hehehe

hehe

that is what I meant,

too good you heard it between

the said and unsaid

the read and unread

because the louder voice

of your inner noise

blocked your detached ears

and you heard,

what you heard

through your nose

hehe

listen again

for what I said lingers

lingers between your nose

with scents of dry anticipation

for repetition from my stitched lips

hehe thats what I said

Deepness of my hearts desire

It’s the far things that I long for,

The things far away,

Tagging behind,

With my lonely soul,

Lost back in the day,

Seeking to recover,

This body,

In strange costumes,

Deep, deep, deeply

Deeply hurt,

Deeply pained,

Seeking that identity,

Lost along the path,

On a journey,

To my future.

Aging desires

The haunted laughs,

Empty gazes,

Faltering steps,

From hesitations,

Of rocks stridden,

Quick and fast,

To the clue of what is,

I search as I gray.

Since you came

I was smiling when you came by,

Must be that beauty gleaming through my heart attracted you,

The kisses you gave me on ma way to ma mama,

Still linger as I remember the days I could not sleep

As you know, by your side

The last letter you wrote to me still holds the tears from my heart

The tears I shed as I read the words saying you need me no more

Now when I see the tears in your eyes,

I realize the jealousy with which I loathed loosing you

I know you needed me no more than I wished you could

And that those tears are not meant for me

But for she who just hurt you

The shoulder I used to give you broke when you left

And the passenger that borrows it every once in a while would not love sharing it with you,

Because of the stitches, it has had to bear since you tore it

You thought it was not worth,

Now you realize how precious it must have been

Oh, Yes

It was precious and you need it

That brings the smile I still have that attracted you

Till you broke my shoulders and cared less of the pain it caused me

Did it take you so long to realize the jewel you lost?

Must be you stayed in a honey pot

That drained as soon as you dipped your finger for a lick

I cannot laugh at your pain and my remorse must be expensive now,

Because you deserve it not just for tasting a drop of the bile, you gave me

It turned around to hit you on the face but as my heart screeched

Each night thinking of the first time I said I loved you

The first time I kissed you

The first time I felt jealous as others watched you

Then came the first time you hurt me

The first time you went to social media

And sailed through facebook and twitter

Flirting and enjoying the fantasies of the web

The emotions of first love of each day every new chick flattered your heart

Then you slipped off without figuring out how lonely it felt as I stayed by your side

Without company other than the clicks and toots of the keypads

Slowly by slowly I lost my place close by as you sailed through the web to some place

Blindly and thoughtlessly of the actions that left me in pain and anguish

Then I learnt the hard way, that my smile is worth more than any virtual pinch,

And I breathed , The laughter that I breath,

Because as the years dried and passed by I realized that if I inhale pain

It is pain that I will exhale,

So if I need love and joy, and peace,

I must breathe in peace to be able to give peace

So goodbye my love because the pain is gone from my heart and that which you think

Is fantasy my stitched shoulder cannot bear.

Sweet Eden

woke up to a streak of light through my window,

wished to smile but my horse broke its saddle,

so, without a ride or a smile,

only mockery of the forbidden,

my heart giggled and moaned,

oh Sweet Eden!



the forbidden is the sweetest,

the sweetest is the forbidden,

these echos thunder in my humble mind,

screaming rebellion,

for what lies in a tease in the bosom

of Sweet Eden!



if i blink and never see again,

flounder and gasp for air amidst rebukes,

the only sense that would carry my heart,

to the winds of pleas and peace,

to the mercies of forbidding traditions,

is a ride of our horse,

in the brink and breaches

exonerated

to Sweet Eden.

Sunshine

Sunshine

You shine so bright like the sun,

Eating through my skin when I’m cold,

You make the world so beautiful sunshine,

You light my life when my days are dark,

Even the lizards they bow at you,

Look up to your warmth,

As they scale the terrace walls,

The birds shine and chirp at your comfort,

Spreading their wings to breed joy in my heart,

At how beautiful you make life,

Everything you touch shines,

And my heart gladdens at your rays,

Looking beautiful like the butterflies,

Jumping across fields of flowers,

Sunshine,

You are my sunshine

Body lies

my body lied to my mind

that you are beautiful

more beautiful than I am,

but my mind says

I am just as beautiful,

maybe more,

maybe just unique

but beautiful.



they argued and fought,

my mind poisoned and broken

schemed to crack your beauty

you cant be more beautiful

but my body kept shouting

my mind listened and writhed

in anger

in rage

in disappointment

in hate

in strife



then competition started

in my girlish mind

seeking for beauty in powder

and ponds and creams

so my body smiled

cooled my mind

soothed my mind

that I was beautiful.



but my dance in the mirror

faltered and my mind broke

powder flaked from my face

and my skin scaled

the cosmetic beautiful mind

that my body boasted

were mere body lies



i looked at your natural face,

saw the beautiful mind you adorned,

looked within my mind

and in haste sought chastity

forgot body lies

now I know I am beautiful

my mind lies with my beauty

no body lies

For I am a woman

you come running from me

from the depths of my womb

in crimson color

reminding me of Eves nature

there are days get tired

but on some I long

and wait in constant checking

to confirm am less woman

but you come scratching my insides

biting my back

drawing me in existence

of your monthly rituals

and he wonders

how you go on

and on and on

but I don't drop

and you come again

all these years

to make me a woman

Cracks in my Bed

It is one of those days,

When smiles brighten dark rooms,

And echoes of heaves and sighs deafen the neighbors,

Listening to cries and moans

Through creaks of walls,

And chikichak of wobbly beds,

Tell of the secrets,

Meant for sheets and foams,

I bite my teeth,

Hold the bed to stop creaking,

My bedly ordeal persists,

Swits buy a bed,

But for now,

Cracks in my bed

shhhhhh

YOU

Tonight, I am not in a hurry,

I want to dance to the allure of the night,

In the silky sheets of your starry bed

Until I melt, stagger and slumber in your arms.



To captivate your eyes into my heart,

Shiver at the touch of your skin,

And call for you close to me,

Silent,

And shuddering at the touch of my skin,

Tell me what to do my prince,

For tonight is my night

Until I melt, stagger and slumber in your arms.



Write your love on my chest,

Feed your fantasies on my mind,

Stagger and grab me

And let loose,

Create a desire I can’t resist,

If it is fallacy just insist,

Nothing matters tonight

Until I melt, stagger and slumber in your arms.

Yours I am

I am never going to run away,

I will not shut my doors to you,

You are always there,

Holding my tears,

Embracing my smile,

Filling my breath,

As you pump energy,

for each day bright and dull,

I hide under your wings,

Trusting and submitting,

As your possession,

Not needing to run away.

I can’t stop falling in love with you

Each time I look at you, I see tranquility in your eyes,

And I breathe as I watch the sky,

Consumed in your beauty,

Wishing the stars were all yours,

And when mama says no,

I cant stop falling in love with you



I wonder how it is possible,

How you make life a wonder,

Setting me free in magical love

And ecstasies in your arms,

I love you day I love you night,

I can’t stop loving you



The more I know you,

The more I love you,

Each time I think I have had enough of you

Your inner beauty comes out a new,

Glowing and glistening like pearls,

In the midnight star lights,

Revealing more of you to me

I can’t stop loving you.



Your scent is of fresh petals,

From virgin flowers, I love the fragrance,

I cannot stop the temptation,

But to savor them for valentine

I cant stop falling in love with you



For if I am to count how I love you,

I love you deeply, and broadly and highly,

I love you with the touch of my soul,

I love you freely, purely and passionately,

I love you with my tears, grief, smile and joys,

I love you in a way I cannot express with words,

God chose that I love you with my live,

I can’t stop falling in love with you

I will love you until forever.

Just Then

Then in the days, long but just then,

The sky was blue overhead,

The wind calm and sexy,

Trees danced to chattering birds,

Children like puppies,

Freestyle,

Played on the mad,

Village drums echoing through hills,

Flowed like streams for the toothless,

And just then,

Darkness, storms and screams,

The sky became dark,

Confusion,

Trees danced no more,

A storm came,

Swept children on the playground,

Hills crushed and crumbled,

Musical streams drained,

The toothless gazed,

Perplexed, mesmerized,

At the frozen drumist,

Just then,

Heavens opened, for a white dazzling dove,

Just then.

Who Are You

DREAMING



I porch my mind seeking that, which the eye sees not

Building from the present my toes touch the clouds

My voice cuts through silvers

Jupiter shades her tears

The immortal being that lives through ages

Give me your hand

Let the eyes of your mind lead me to the path



Tears are tingling my eyes, I have just realized a lie,

Was about to lie about myself but so bad is a lie,

Like the day I said am happy, it was all a lie,

All that keep us together needs no lie



But I shall tell the truth, that even I do not understand,

As I tell you who I am.

Clear and crystal from the cosmetic you know,

Making you yearn to be me,

The me you never would admire,

On a platter for free or hire,

This, is who I am.



I am the smile you wish you had,

Yet inside I bleed yearning for the smile,

To hoist the shade that I have become,

And elevate the one I was born.

Digging among rabbles east to west,

I but wonder where I am,

For I truly wish to tell you who I am.

As I stated in the beginning,

I don’t want to tell you a lie,

But the realization is so bleak,

Since I must have dropped me,

And forgotten to recover,

To pick the pieces,

That held the inner smile,

So I remain with this fake you admire.

What if I shed a tear during the smile,

Would you notice it?

Of course I conceal and you would never see.

What if I lost a step,

Would you guide me?

Doubts and doubts,

You follow my lost heart.

Amongst Vipers

I walk the streets alone,
Amongst vipers,
Yearning for the cream,
Of my solitude,
Devoid of company,
Just lonely amongst.
Even the loudest scream From my bosom,
That could blarr the deafs ear,
Seem to bother none,
These vipers,
Sure amaze me,
At their blindness,
Deafness and clueless nature,
Of the worth of the cream,
They wish to swindle

Mama for You Baby Lee

It is your eyes I fear pricking mine,

Coz they see through and I can’t hold it,

I feel safe at a distance without you looking,

Bridging the gap only breed vulnerability,

Of my heart so strong,

It should bite a lion for you,

Yet so tender a smile breaks it,

It’s your touch I fear on my skin,

Pampering the memory of the day I bore you,

Soothed you with my touch,

Now crushed and bruised,

It splinters your skin,

It’s the distance I see, to sail you through times,

Against waves and storms of lonely oceans,

Lonely of paternity that my heart tears,

In loathing, yet, sweetness,

You are still mine,

Still mine to hold in my laps,

And pull in my bosom,

As my sweet baby love,

That you will forever be,

BLASTED KENYA

As brothers and sisters

My heart mourns,
My blasted Kenya?
What causes thou these tears
Seemingly unending
Continuously disturbing,
Who does have the answers?
That I humble heart desires,
For reasons behind the happenings,
Haunting the mind of Kenya’s fabric
For how long shall we build?
Knowing not demolition time
How much more sacrifice
Before peace, comes Kenya dear?
I sit and wonder in anguish,
Pain engulfing my heart tearing it to pieces
But why?
Why, and for how long
Shall we cry without answers?
How can we forget the love and joy?
That held us together
As brothers and sisters
Countrymen from ages,
Kenya heart aches and sorrows,
With pains undefined
Daily blasts and grenades
Oh Kenya dear

Just Then

Then in the days, long but just then,
The sky was blue overhead,
The wind calm and sexy,
Trees danced to chattering birds,
Children like puppies,
Freestyle,
Played on the mad,
Village drums echoing through hills,
Flowed like streams for the toothless,
And just then,
Darkness, storms and screams,
The sky became dark,
Confusion,
Trees danced no more,
A storm came,
Swept children on the playground,
Hills crushed and crumbled,
Musical streams drained,
The toothless gazed,
Perplexed, mesmerized,
At the frozen drumist,
Just then,
Heavens opened, for a white dazzling dove,
Just then.