Wednesday, February 6, 2013
smilling flowers
If you cant smile, cheat life
if you cant feel, smile for me
take the terrain to the left juggle
pick smiling flowers,
when shadows dont see
bring smiles to darkness platters
serve in hopeful juices
from pawpaw trees I love
just smile for me
hehehe
hehe
that is what I meant,
too good you heard it between
the said and unsaid
the read and unread
because the louder voice
of your inner noise
blocked your detached ears
and you heard,
what you heard
through your nose
hehe
listen again
for what I said lingers
lingers between your nose
with scents of dry anticipation
for repetition from my stitched lips
hehe thats what I said
Deepness of my hearts desire
It’s the far things that I long for,
The things far away,
Tagging behind,
With my lonely soul,
Lost back in the day,
Seeking to recover,
This body,
In strange costumes,
Deep, deep, deeply
Deeply hurt,
Deeply pained,
Seeking that identity,
Lost along the path,
On a journey,
To my future.
Aging desires
The haunted laughs,
Empty gazes,
Faltering steps,
From hesitations,
Of rocks stridden,
Quick and fast,
To the clue of what is,
I search as I gray.
Since you came
I was smiling when you came by,
Must be that beauty gleaming through my heart attracted you,
The kisses you gave me on ma way to ma mama,
Still linger as I remember the days I could not sleep
As you know, by your side
The last letter you wrote to me still holds the tears from my heart
The tears I shed as I read the words saying you need me no more
Now when I see the tears in your eyes,
I realize the jealousy with which I loathed loosing you
I know you needed me no more than I wished you could
And that those tears are not meant for me
But for she who just hurt you
The shoulder I used to give you broke when you left
And the passenger that borrows it every once in a while would not love sharing it with you,
Because of the stitches, it has had to bear since you tore it
You thought it was not worth,
Now you realize how precious it must have been
Oh, Yes
It was precious and you need it
That brings the smile I still have that attracted you
Till you broke my shoulders and cared less of the pain it caused me
Did it take you so long to realize the jewel you lost?
Must be you stayed in a honey pot
That drained as soon as you dipped your finger for a lick
I cannot laugh at your pain and my remorse must be expensive now,
Because you deserve it not just for tasting a drop of the bile, you gave me
It turned around to hit you on the face but as my heart screeched
Each night thinking of the first time I said I loved you
The first time I kissed you
The first time I felt jealous as others watched you
Then came the first time you hurt me
The first time you went to social media
And sailed through facebook and twitter
Flirting and enjoying the fantasies of the web
The emotions of first love of each day every new chick flattered your heart
Then you slipped off without figuring out how lonely it felt as I stayed by your side
Without company other than the clicks and toots of the keypads
Slowly by slowly I lost my place close by as you sailed through the web to some place
Blindly and thoughtlessly of the actions that left me in pain and anguish
Then I learnt the hard way, that my smile is worth more than any virtual pinch,
And I breathed , The laughter that I breath,
Because as the years dried and passed by I realized that if I inhale pain
It is pain that I will exhale,
So if I need love and joy, and peace,
I must breathe in peace to be able to give peace
So goodbye my love because the pain is gone from my heart and that which you think
Is fantasy my stitched shoulder cannot bear.
Sweet Eden
woke up to a streak of light through my window,
wished to smile but my horse broke its saddle,
so, without a ride or a smile,
only mockery of the forbidden,
my heart giggled and moaned,
oh Sweet Eden!
the forbidden is the sweetest,
the sweetest is the forbidden,
these echos thunder in my humble mind,
screaming rebellion,
for what lies in a tease in the bosom
of Sweet Eden!
if i blink and never see again,
flounder and gasp for air amidst rebukes,
the only sense that would carry my heart,
to the winds of pleas and peace,
to the mercies of forbidding traditions,
is a ride of our horse,
in the brink and breaches
exonerated
to Sweet Eden.
Sunshine
Sunshine
You shine so bright like the sun,
Eating through my skin when I’m cold,
You make the world so beautiful sunshine,
You light my life when my days are dark,
Even the lizards they bow at you,
Look up to your warmth,
As they scale the terrace walls,
The birds shine and chirp at your comfort,
Spreading their wings to breed joy in my heart,
At how beautiful you make life,
Everything you touch shines,
And my heart gladdens at your rays,
Looking beautiful like the butterflies,
Jumping across fields of flowers,
Sunshine,
You are my sunshine
Body lies
my body lied to my mind
that you are beautiful
more beautiful than I am,
but my mind says
I am just as beautiful,
maybe more,
maybe just unique
but beautiful.
they argued and fought,
my mind poisoned and broken
schemed to crack your beauty
you cant be more beautiful
but my body kept shouting
my mind listened and writhed
in anger
in rage
in disappointment
in hate
in strife
then competition started
in my girlish mind
seeking for beauty in powder
and ponds and creams
so my body smiled
cooled my mind
soothed my mind
that I was beautiful.
but my dance in the mirror
faltered and my mind broke
powder flaked from my face
and my skin scaled
the cosmetic beautiful mind
that my body boasted
were mere body lies
i looked at your natural face,
saw the beautiful mind you adorned,
looked within my mind
and in haste sought chastity
forgot body lies
now I know I am beautiful
my mind lies with my beauty
no body lies
For I am a woman
you come running from me
from the depths of my womb
in crimson color
reminding me of Eves nature
there are days get tired
but on some I long
and wait in constant checking
to confirm am less woman
but you come scratching my insides
biting my back
drawing me in existence
of your monthly rituals
and he wonders
how you go on
and on and on
but I don't drop
and you come again
all these years
to make me a woman
Cracks in my Bed
It is one of those days,
When smiles brighten dark rooms,
And echoes of heaves and sighs deafen the neighbors,
Listening to cries and moans
Through creaks of walls,
And chikichak of wobbly beds,
Tell of the secrets,
Meant for sheets and foams,
I bite my teeth,
Hold the bed to stop creaking,
My bedly ordeal persists,
Swits buy a bed,
But for now,
Cracks in my bed
shhhhhh
YOU
Tonight, I am not in a hurry,
I want to dance to the allure of the night,
In the silky sheets of your starry bed
Until I melt, stagger and slumber in your arms.
To captivate your eyes into my heart,
Shiver at the touch of your skin,
And call for you close to me,
Silent,
And shuddering at the touch of my skin,
Tell me what to do my prince,
For tonight is my night
Until I melt, stagger and slumber in your arms.
Write your love on my chest,
Feed your fantasies on my mind,
Stagger and grab me
And let loose,
Create a desire I can’t resist,
If it is fallacy just insist,
Nothing matters tonight
Until I melt, stagger and slumber in your arms.
Yours I am
I am never going to run away,
I will not shut my doors to you,
You are always there,
Holding my tears,
Embracing my smile,
Filling my breath,
As you pump energy,
for each day bright and dull,
I hide under your wings,
Trusting and submitting,
As your possession,
Not needing to run away.
I can’t stop falling in love with you
Each time I look at you, I see tranquility in your eyes,
And I breathe as I watch the sky,
Consumed in your beauty,
Wishing the stars were all yours,
And when mama says no,
I cant stop falling in love with you
I wonder how it is possible,
How you make life a wonder,
Setting me free in magical love
And ecstasies in your arms,
I love you day I love you night,
I can’t stop loving you
The more I know you,
The more I love you,
Each time I think I have had enough of you
Your inner beauty comes out a new,
Glowing and glistening like pearls,
In the midnight star lights,
Revealing more of you to me
I can’t stop loving you.
Your scent is of fresh petals,
From virgin flowers, I love the fragrance,
I cannot stop the temptation,
But to savor them for valentine
I cant stop falling in love with you
For if I am to count how I love you,
I love you deeply, and broadly and highly,
I love you with the touch of my soul,
I love you freely, purely and passionately,
I love you with my tears, grief, smile and joys,
I love you in a way I cannot express with words,
God chose that I love you with my live,
I can’t stop falling in love with you
I will love you until forever.
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